I wish I was like you

What deeds gave you a jeweled palace secured
In heaven by the lips of the Messenger?
You have a spacious grave attended by the kindest angels.
O Lady Khadijah, beloved of our Lord Mohammad, forever,
I pray my heart proves to be pure like yours.

Dearest Allah, Your love shines in my life forever,
But I struggle to be faithful. My sins obscure
My faith and my piety. My financial dealings have been
Fraught with temptation and sin. Our Lady Khadijah in her dealings remained so pure
Of usury and corruption. Please make me like her.

She fed the poor and hungry. She gave the ability to marry
To those who could not afford it. She deserved
The titles, Ameerat-Quraish, Princess of the Quaraish
Khadija Al-Kubra, Khadijah the Great, Al Tahir,
The Pure. Merciful Allah, conform me to her image.

When the Messenger would retreat to Mount Hira
To fast and pray she would feed him. Her wealth assured
The Messenger had time to cultivate his spirit. The birth of Islam relied
On her support. When the Prophet descended and shivered
She was the one to put a blanket around him and to comfort him.

She was the first Muslim. Without her the Prophet would have had no supporter,
And no way to establish our faith. Her riches succoured
The converts. Her faithfulness to the Blessed Message
Sanctified her for all time. What love and piety! I wonder
About how I could follow her example more.

What made her marriage to the Messenger’s so strong and sure?
Lady Aisha asked what made her worthy of his love like no other.
He replied: “She accepted me when people rejected me, she believed in me
When people doubted me, she shared her wealth with me when people deprived me,
And Allah granted me children only through her.” Beloved Allah, cast me in her mold!

O Lady Khadijah we know there are four women above all others
Khadijah bint Khuwaylid, Fatimah bint Muhammad, Mary bint Emran
and Asiya bint Muzahim, the wife of Pharaoh.
You were the perfect wife for the Seal of the Prophets and the most perfect mother.
O Allah, encourage me to strive harder! O Allah, help me be pure! O Allah, make me like her!