A separate life

This wandering mind looks for You, my Dear One, alone.
Where have You hidden Yourself from me? Here I am alone.
All my thoughts are filled with the futile chase of life's treasure.
Yet no solace proceeds from Your Love in this mirrored hall where I stand, alone.
I can weld my heart to You no more than me in Time's span.
I waste and chase the days without You near, lost and alone.
The places where I once knew and embraced You are forsaken.
I seek for You and search my unclear thoughts lost and alone.
I place my feet at angles carefully so I conform.
My friends look on filled with scorn. My Darling, I lie alone!
A limit reached, I plant my hands to the floor, void and cold.
Is my love waste? My listless heart not clean with tears, alone.
Prayer stays an empty form. Words of scripture offer no help.
I wait as my hair fills with oil, laid on a bier alone.
No coverings of glory are found without Your mercy.
Veils are useless. They tear. I find meaning in You alone.
I could sit under a street light, hidden and quite ashamed.
I could rest unwashed, be watched while I rage, impure, alone.
My heart, my hand, my tongue still all proclaim my love for You.
I spend silent days waiting for You to return alone.
The cycle of months and years begins to fill like empty space
Knicknacks, broken lamps, trash lie amidst a fallow field, alone.
Speak to me, talk with me in friendship, walk near me Dearest.
Your company protects me from hatred and fills my life, alone.
Where can I find you? People degrade me to show their faith.
Hope, kindness, grace, peace, all gone, I wander in fear, alone.